Begging to be wrong

The most painful part of making a painful decision, is being right about it.

I remain silent, and somewhat lonely. These woman, they dont understand that getting rid of them is like chopping more than half of myself and throwing it away.

In the end, its ok.

Now its just an exercise of channeling. Focusing that pain, regret and anger into myself, try to stop the self destruction/abandon and craft something better out of it.

That does not mean, i could not use some human contact.